Bad News and Day 6 Janathon 1/6/12

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Just as I was getting changed to go run, I got a phone call from my sister saying that Dad had another heart attack, while at physical therapy and was being taken to EMMC in Bangor.

She said they would give me a call after they got there to let me know how he was doing. I imagine that after that call I will be heading up to Bangor. I have an hour or two to wait before I hear anything from them.

I had to decide whether to run or not, while the news was not devastating, it was a question of when, not if Dad would have more heart trouble, so it wasn’t really unexpected, but at the same time, not news you want to get.

I thought about it for a few minutes and I know my father and he would say “get your ass out there and just do it.”

So I did.

Running today helped me sort through the emotions that I was feeling and lowered my stress level considerably about what  to do next.

I was scheduled for 5.0 miles, but with the footing and wanting to be fairly close by if my sister called back, I just stayed on top and ran my 3.2 mile course.  The run was on about inch of snow flurry that has accumulated since 9:00 A.M. and even though the plow went through just before I ran, it was still pretty slippery. My first mile was around a 10:00 minute pace and as I loosened up and got confident about my footing, I picked the pace up pretty good and finished pretty respectably.

I needed that run more than I want to admit.  Dad going back to the hospital scares me a lot, because one of these times, well he just won’t be coming home again.

So wish us well and say a couple of prayers for Dad today, I have a feeling he will be needing them.

Why in the hell am I doing this blog post, instead of immediately driving up to Bangor? This is the system we have worked out in my family and I need to do something to occupy my mind, while I am waiting to see if I head north tonight or tomorrow morning.

Yes things like #Janathon and other similar things, take on a whole different level of insignificance when something like this happens.

Quality of Run: Good
Weight: 169 (finally broke 170)
Time of Run: 2:20 P.M.
Temp 27F
Weather: Light snow all day about an inch accumulation – slippery

Time to clean up and wait for that phone call, while I try to keep myself thinking about other things. If you see me on Twitter or wherever that is what I am trying to do now, while I wait.

Waiting is the hardest part.

5 thoughts on “Bad News and Day 6 Janathon 1/6/12

  1. Hello Sir. My dad has been dealing with cancer for 2 years now. Just before xmas he went into hospital for another operation but suffered a heart attack whilst in surgery. I got a phone call in the early hours from the Critical Care Unit asking me to go in and say my 'Goodbye's' as they didn't expect him to survive. It's the most difficult thing I've had to do. Amazingly, he pulled through, and is now recovering at home. Good things happen. My thought are with you and your dad.

  2. Harold — I'm so sorry to hear about your Dad. I'm glad you were able to get out for a quick run to try and process it all. You and your Dad are in my thoughts and prayers. Keep us posted when you can. Take care…

  3. Thank you Erik – he is stable and starting to give the nurses a hard time, so he is doing okay, has a bunch of stuff to be done next week, so I will be going up there in the morning. Thank you again.Harold

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