Last week I attended the funeral of my brother-in-law Phil on Thursday – it was not something that I expected to do for many more years.
Since Mary’s brother Phil died unexpectedly of natural causes on June 1st, there has been a lot of grieving, pain and yes, more than a little hard work. Phil’s sudden loss has also been an eye-opening experience for me.
Since his death I have repeatedly asked myself:
- What is important?
- What are my priorities?
- How do I want to live my life with whatever time I have left?
- How do I want to leave things for others when I do pass (hopefully many years from now)?
The three plus hour one way drive to Phil’s house, has given me a lot of time think about those questions and a multitude of others that we ask ourselves after someone close to you dies unexpectedly.
Books are written on this subject so a weekly summary blog post is not going to do it justice, but needless to say the wheels have been set in motion for changes for me/us going forward.
Now it will be interesting to see where it leads.
Getting back to more mundane things and even some running.
With all the driving back and forth to New Hampshire several times, preparing for a funeral, beginning the process of clearing out a home and all the other things associated with this past week, my running became absolutely necessary.
I won’t say that I actually trained very much, but I did run almost four hours during the week and it was needed to relieve some the stress and lack of sleep that was happening. I reached the volume that I wanted for the week, however, the longer runs I was planning on didn’t happen.
Although I did get over to Bond Brook and run the trails there last Wednesday. It was the first time I have run on trails this year and I could tell the difference, my body was very tired after that run compared to a typical road run.
I found a pair of Hoka Infinite’s at a great price from Running Warehouse that I couldn’t resist trying. Especially when all the reviews complained or raved about how wide the toe-box was.
Finally a pair of Hoka’s that seem to be wide enough for my weirdly shaped right foot, but I can’t wear them again until Father’s Day – errr maybe. Surprisingly the Infinite’s D-width toe box seems to be shaped more like my foot and a little wider than my Glide 9’s or Vomero 11’s in EE-width, so I am hopeful.
Also I found a pair of Hoka Challenger’s and while I wouldn’t wear them around too much for casual wear, when I was running on the trails at Bond Brook, I didn’t notice the shoes, except to think about how well I was running in them.
At some point we all finally acknowledge our own mortality and last week is where I did that. We all say, that couldn’t happen to me, I am too young, too healthy, too whatever to f#$% you want to say, the truth is that we all live and will die.
It is just that for the most part we do not know when the dying will happen. It is up to us to decide how we will live until that day, based on the choices we make in our lives.
It was definitely a tough week, however it has also started me down a road that is less traveled by many, so we will see what the future holds. Whatever it does, I hope to live it well.